Human in A Box
I'm in a box.
A box.
The box.
I don't remember when and how I've been in.
I was out once.
I was free.
I could fly, fly out everywhere.
I was happy, happy I think.
Smile?
I smiled. Smiled a lot…
I don't remember how and why I smiled. But, I do picture when I smiled once.
I can't… can't smile now. But, I'm very sure I will smile again.
Just not now.
I'm in the box.
I can't get out now. I can't smile in the box.
I will. I will be out someday.
Someday soon. But, not now.
I don't feel anything now.
Pain?
I felt pain once.
But, I don't remember the pain and I don't feel any pain now.
I felt pleasure once.
But, no, no, I don't remember the pleasure.
Hope?
I have hope. I believe in the hope.
In the hope I'm happy.
I'm just in the box, not in the hope now.
But, I will be soon in the hope.
Hate?
Did I have?
No, I didn't…did I?
No, I didn't hate.
Was I hated?
How do I know?
I'm in the box. None knows me now.
Hurt?
Was I?
I don't know. I don't feel anything in the box.
Scared?
I was once but not in the box.
Love?
I did once I guess.
I don't need to love in the box.
In the box,
I don't need to be scared, I don't need to be hurt, and I don't need to love.
I just don't feel anything in the box.
Who am I?
Identity?
Nationality?
Race?
Gender?
Education?
Dream?
Ambition?
Satisfaction?
Disappointment?
Occupation?
Family?
Friends?
Lover?
I don't know who I am.
A box.
The box.
I'm in the box that's who I am.
None hates me in the box.
None bother me in the box.
None knows me in the box.
None loves me in the box.
None needs me in the box.
That's who I am…
I am nobody in the box.
I want to feel again.
I want to get out from the box.
But, how?
I was hurt. I'm scared.
What should I do?
Should I feel pain again?
Should I feel the anger people have?
Should I feel the disgust people have?
Should I feel the violence people have?
What should I do to get out from the box?
what?
how?
who?
Can I trust?
Can I believe?
Can I love?
Do you hear me?
Do you see me?
Do you feel me?
I'm in the box.
<human in a box>from art event kawasaki maze